Sometimes I forget what it feels like to feel the way I did last year. How quickly I am reminded when it hits me like a car smashing into a cement wall. It starts with the way I think. One minute I’m on the ball and my head is clear. The next, I can’t think at all. It’s like a thief comes into my brain and robs me of my thoughts, knowledge, words, everything. I don’t comprehend anything and when I look at a paragraph of words, I don’t understand what I’m reading – nothing registers in my mind. Even as I write this, I continuously forget what I want to write about. My head is spinning and I am experiencing a full body shake. I sit outside in below freezing temperatures and don’t feel a thing. I am frustrated. I grow stronger everyday, and then this happens. I just don’t understand!
What I described above happened to me last night during my shift at work. All I ate yesterday were “safe” foods. What happened? Was my food starting to go bad after being out of the refrigerator for many hours before I ate it? That’s a strong possibility.
Because of unexpected setbacks like this, I cannot trust myself to work full time this summer. I never know when my body will betray me like this.
How do I deal with the way I feel? I go home, and go to bed. I wake up the next day feeling weak, but my thinking is clear again. Then I eat foods that I know work with my body, and feel much better!